Too Much to Process

Between the sadness I feel about all those lives lost in Newtown, the holidays approaching, the darkness of evening starting so early, the busy weekend and our financial struggle I am thoroughly exhausted.  I don't know how to move forward after the tragedy in Newtown.  I can not wrap my head around the depth of sadness. Worrying about your children while they are in school is absolutely unnerving.  Is there any way we can ensure that ALL our children are getting the attention and care they need?  That someone in their lives knows when something is wrong and does something about it?  As parents we have that responsibility - to really know our children, as educators we have a similar responsibility - to know our students, as religious leaders we must be in touch with our congregants... as human beings we must wake up and pay attention to all living things around us. We must care, we must empathize and we must help.

The last of the Christmas presents.

I wrapped the remainder of our gifts this morning. Fiona sat on the desk right beside me while I was wrapping.  Her company is comfort for me - I think she knows I am emotionally exhausted. I wish I could give something comforting to the families of all the victims.  I think they must feel that life lacks meaning right now, and that there is nothing at all that could bring them comfort.  I am so blessed to have all of my children.  Whether or not they believe it, my love for them is unconditional and infinite.  I may not always be the best at showing it or communicating it.  I need to work on that because its important to me that they know it.

Fiona curled up on the desk.

This morning I photographed most of my new pieces but unfortunately the card reader for my camera is in a bag in my partner's car.  I used my phone for a few when the camera battery died, but the majority of the pics are on the SD card and for now that's where they will stay.

While in McKinney I made 3-4 new boot bling because 3 sold, two bracelets and 2 new necklaces.  It was so nice sitting outside, beading, shmoozing with customers and vendors, and being with the one I love.

I am going to hop in the shower and get out of my footy pajamas - we are going to dinner with a friend tonight and I need to get with it.